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Hello, I'm very sorry about the last rant in my last journal, I never thought it could get any worse but it seems like fate wanted to show me surprisingly the possibilty, that life can get worse.
My fathers mother died yesterday. I never really liked her that much, so hearing the news that she was dead wouldn't be that shocking if it wasn't my fathers mom. He cried like he never did before, I mean, after all, she was his mother, no matter how rude and egoistic she was. She still had a little space in her heart for him.
Watching your beloved father crying for the first time in front of you makes you feel not only uncomfortable but also helpless.
Not knowing how to comfort your parent in the darkest hour made me feel useless and helpless.
That feeling is aweful, it infects your whole being.
I can understand, how my father feels right now at the moment. To know, that, whenever you're going to travel back to your home country, you won't see your mother ever again, is the worst.
To be honest, I don't really know how to cope with this situation. Whenever I try to get into normality, it just jumps back like a rubber band and it feels like the darkness and the sadness are crawling again in your life. Life just seems to be blurry and grey (even if I hardly try to make it a bit colourful) and it feels like this "greyness" developes itself into a black hole (the hoover in the universe).
Is there anyone, who could help me?
(BTW, my dad's going back to india on sunday this week to his mothers funeral, so that mean, the depressive mood will also fade away probably after his departure)
My fathers mother died yesterday. I never really liked her that much, so hearing the news that she was dead wouldn't be that shocking if it wasn't my fathers mom. He cried like he never did before, I mean, after all, she was his mother, no matter how rude and egoistic she was. She still had a little space in her heart for him.
Watching your beloved father crying for the first time in front of you makes you feel not only uncomfortable but also helpless.
Not knowing how to comfort your parent in the darkest hour made me feel useless and helpless.
That feeling is aweful, it infects your whole being.
I can understand, how my father feels right now at the moment. To know, that, whenever you're going to travel back to your home country, you won't see your mother ever again, is the worst.
To be honest, I don't really know how to cope with this situation. Whenever I try to get into normality, it just jumps back like a rubber band and it feels like the darkness and the sadness are crawling again in your life. Life just seems to be blurry and grey (even if I hardly try to make it a bit colourful) and it feels like this "greyness" developes itself into a black hole (the hoover in the universe).
Is there anyone, who could help me?
(BTW, my dad's going back to india on sunday this week to his mothers funeral, so that mean, the depressive mood will also fade away probably after his departure)
This is so sad, you need to take action!
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As a fellow animal lover as myself, it's very saddening to see these things:
(removed pic, it's too graphic and sad for me to show any longer)
"Some kids placed strong firecracker in the mouth of this animal and made sure he could not open it. The world is like this. To these kids it must have been a macabre fun for a few minutes and then they continued with their life like nothing happened.
To this animal, his life ended during those minutes, with a pain so deep that is better to forget.
If you are against the mistreatment of animals, share this so that more people see what we are capable to do and
Daddy....it hurts
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My name is Chris,
I am three,
My eyes are swollen...
I cannot see.
I must be stupid,
I must be bad,
What else could have made,
My daddy so mad?
I wish I were better,
I wish I weren't ugly,
Then maybe my mommy,
Would still want to hug me.
I can't do a wrong,
I can't speak at all,
Or else I'm locked up,
All day long.
When I'm awake,
I'm all alone,
The house is dark,
My folks aren't home.
When my mommy does come home,
I'll try and be nice,
So maybe I'll just get,
One whipping tonight.
I just heard a car,
My daddy is back,
From Charlie's bar.
I hear him curse,
My name is called,
I press myself,
Again
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Rumor has it there is a hacker on DA, someone is hacking people and blocking our friends to make them block us. You'll then be banned from this website.
Write the same warning in your journal to protect not only yourself but everyone! Here's another warning: If I'm being a jerk, saying stuff like "Shut up", "Get lost" or "I don't want you see you on my homepage anymore", that's not really me. That's the hacker. Say something like "Why did you say that?". I'll see what you said and then change my password or something!
Write all of this down in your journal too!
Please do this, it's for the safety of
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